tears in january

Papa I love you and always will
Don’t be doubt, afraid, or sad
I love you more than everything
And I know that you love me more than everything
Sorry papa, lately I was naughty, lazy and dirty
But I will change my bad habit because I love you very much, papa
I prayed to ALLAH to make you happy, to come into syurga, and always healty
Please papa, keep your health
I will be sick if you are sick
I want you be happy everyday
I want to see your smile, your laugh, and your joke
I want to seat beside you and close to you
Giving your love for me is more than enough papa
I miss you papa and always will


Mama, I don’t know what I have to say to you
Except two words ..
Sorry and thank you
Thank you for everything that you give to me
I know mama, I cant pay it by my money
Your love is the most expensive thing in the world
I will never can breathe, smile, laugh, think, and bla bla bla without your love
So that, I hope you promise me 
To never ever leave me alone In this cruel world
I am just a little girl mama
I prayed to ALLAH to make you happy, to come into syurga, and always healty
Please mama be strong and brave, keep your health
I need you, I love you, I miss you forever mama
I cant life without you because loving you is my life


Now, I feel alone in the crowded
I am afraid to make a conversation with people in this crowd
No one is telling the truth. So where I have to find someone like 
Someone like… 
Ughh. Nobody !
they just pretend in front of me
It’s not an honest expression
Being your self is better than be a clown
Clown has two face but your self only have one face
I think only one face is enough


When I was sick my beloved mama was sick too
I don’t want make my mom become worry of me
Mama have to recover soon 


Oh my goodness
I don’t know what I think now. Do I hate January ?
No, no, no, no I am not. I love January very much.
Because I born in January
But, why are my tears falling during January ?
Because a lot of dust coming into your eyes
Waaww,,, what is this ?
I make a terrible question and the way I answer my own question is foolish
That’s strange !


Thank you for there are people who make me strong to face my world
They are my family and my close friends. i love you.